| Wednesday, August 31, 2005 |
| A SPIRITUAL HOPE.. |
God, I know that I have abandoned you so many times,
but You are still there.
God, I aware that I have alot of sins that I can't never count.
But You always shine on me.
God,I know that I can't believe anything or anyone in this world, but YOU.
Please help me and stay with me always. |
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| Monday, August 29, 2005 |
| After all the hell things.. |
Huah.. after so much tears and sad things came, I finally had my own fun times. I mean My really own and private time. Cheers..
On monday, I've got great news that I have to go to Makassar on wed and thursday to report a client's event there. Actually, it was my colleague's assignment, but she was very tired and ask me to go to makassar instead.
Huah, I really love travelling. Knowing that I had to go there by myself was a challenge. Sweet challenge.
So I packed and went there with first flight. It was hard to get up so early in the morning, but I accepted it gladly, coz I knew I would have so much fun there. And something deep inside telling me that it was my chance to recovery from my hurt. Also, a moment to reflect myself from everything that happened to me lately.
Arriving at 9 am, took a cab to my hotel where my office already booked. Well, what can I say about my hotel. it was spooky, it was being renovated, but I was fine with that. I/m such a backpacker, so that would fine with me.
After that, go to wisma manunggal where the event was held. Well, took some shots there, and since I found there was nothing to do. I decided to go to the Keradjinan shop where I could buy some goodies for my family and friends in Jakarta. And back to hotel to take a nap. i was so sleepy coz I only slept three hours the other nite.
Then back to the wisma manunggal, and took some shots there. And Went to benteng Rotterdam. It was such an historical place, but i felt sad coz they don;t keep everything original there. Here, I went to prison where Pangeran diponegoro was kept so many decades ago. Also, you can find a prison which was so spooky. Aji nyali pernah diadakan disini dan terjadi kesurupan. HUah.
Then buy some mcds for dinner, and back to hotel. I didn't go out for the whole nite.
The next morning, took a shower and breakfast in the hotel. Checked out with some worries in my mind. I only had fifty rupiahs in my pocket, and I know I have to pay for airport tax and cab to got to airport. So, I thought what sud I do? But, whatever, a fighter sud always try hard and think positive. To minimize the cost, I went to Mall ratu INdah where the second event was held by becak. It was great and fun. BEcak was small and cheap. You sud try it when you were in Makassar.
At mal ratu Indah, I checked my atm. I thought that I have some money in my account. Voila, THANKS GOD, Gue udah gajian. SO I'm not broke anymore. Huahhahahah, lets go for shopping and do the hedon things again. :)
In Indonesian,
Ternyata, acaranya telat lagi. Huh gak dimana mana, Orang indonesia selalu telat. Jadinya, gue ngopi dulu di excelso, nyobain kopi toraja yang terkenal banget. Kayaknya di Jakarta juga ada sih, tapi pengalamannya berbeda minum kopi di tempat asal kopi itu didapat. hehhehehe,
Terus, foto foto untuk liputan lagi. Magod, di makassar cheerleadernya banyak yang banci gettoo. Gue bener bener terhibur. And someone that as sweet as Rio Febrian, you are so gorgeous! Thank you
Terus , gue jalan jalan dulu ke pantai tanjung bayang dan bunga. abis itu ke benteng sombopu. Disini banyak miniatur rumah adat Ujung pandang. Foto foto diri sebagai orang narsis.
Kemudian, belanja oleh-oleh lagi buat orang-orang tersayang. Abis itu balik ke mal ratu indah.
Damn, ternyata sampe disana belom mulai lagi. Akhirnya, gue harus balik ke jakarta karena waktu check in gue jam 6 sore.
Nyampe jakarta jam 10-an. Balik ke mampang. Terus, tidur.
But, selama gue di makasar, gue punya banyak waktu untuk berpikir kenapa semuanya bisa terjadi, kenapa sakit hati harus ada, kenapa rasa itu membuat gue merasa terluka. Sekarang, gue lebih tenang menghadapi segala hal yang mungkin akan terjadi nanti.
Friday, went to off. And prepared to go to Puncak at 7. pm. Wah, sebenernya agak cape' tapi berhubung udah janji ama anak-anak. yah sudahlah, i decided to go.
hehehe, kejadian lucu di depok sebelum berangkat ke puncak adalah gue tidak membawa kunci kontrakan. jadi, terpaksalah pintu kamar gue di dobrak. Thank you irwan. heheheh, maaf menyusahkan.
Sampai puncak, ngantuk.. dan terpaksa mandi walau dingin. Damn, siapa yang boongin gue, bilang kalo airnya gak dingin. Itu mah udah kayak mandi ama air es. Sialannn.
Malamnya, main games ama anak-anak Win lose or draw. Such a pathetic game actually, but it succeeded making me awake.
The next day, main gaple, karaokean, dan berfikir. heheheh ternyata bukan cuman gue yang berfikir, dewi dan ita juga berfikir. Marilah kita dalam kebingungan itu, sista!!
Terus malamnya, nonton the grudge and house of wax. Sialan, udara dingin bikin nyali gue makin ciut. Damn, jadilah gue bulan-bulanan anak-anak karena gue tereak-tereak the whole film. HHEHHEEH, sialan loe pada dapat tontonan gratis yah.
Bistuw, ngobrol ama dewi mengenai kebingungan kita berdua. HEHHEEHHE, ada apa yah? sebenernya dia itu siapanya siapa yah? heheheheh, mari kita bingung.
Terus, nonton anak-anak karaokean dengan lirik dan suara yang tidak jelas. Huahahhah kalo pada gak kuat, yah jangan dikuat-kuatin dunks.
Besok paginya, foto foto dan siap siap buat pulang ke jakarta. O, i miss jakarta. Pulang sempet berhenti di stopan tol bogor. Makan.. Laperrrrr.. Laperrrr. Dan kesimpulan yang bisa gue ambil selama perjalanan adalah gue makin bingung.
sampai depok, balik ke kontrakan bentar, terus meluncur ke mampang.
hehehe, sampai mampang, surprise. kamar gue udah dipindahkan ke kamar depan. hehehehe, gak pa pa juga, membuat gue tidak perlu berkeringat untuk pindahan kan. Thanks for all my family.
P.s. Di dalam tulisan ini, Anda akan menemukan beberapa topik yang akan membingungkan. Sengaja beberapa kejadian, nama, dan tempat dirahasiakan untuk memberikan kebingungan tersendiri. Karena yang nulis juga lagi bingung. ehehheeh bingung ato ilfil. dunno.... |
| posted by gitabanget @ 2:36 AM |
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| Monday, August 22, 2005 |
| Fuck OFF! |
Akh,. you better fuck off coz you're so fucked up!!
hate you more, love you less.
Damn. #I. don;t ever think that I have to through this.
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| posted by gitabanget @ 8:45 AM |
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| The very stupid love poem |
I know that I feel happy when I'm with you.
But that's not satisfying.
I know that you have the patience to handle the ghost inside me.
But that's still worrying me.
I know that I can run to you whenever I want to.
But that's not relieving.
I know that you can love me the way I want.
But I also believe that love keep changing and transforming.
I know that you will accept me the way I am.
But that's not good enough.
Call me selfish, I know you want to call me that way.
The reason I can't be with you coZ I don't have the quarantee you won't change.
So, all my answer will be kept silent like a stone in a grave.
Coz, i love you so much.
And I'm afraid my love will hurt you in the future. |
| posted by gitabanget @ 1:16 AM |
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| I won't sell my faith! |
Had a conversation with one of my best girlfriend in a cafe in p.s, I just realized one thing, that I won't sell my faith or many people defined it as religion. I know many people will react negatively when I said this statement. Yeah, I know that I.m not a good Moslem. I rarely do my "sholat" and I do many things that are not allowed in my religion.
But, I know that I believe in GOD SO MUCH. I know that since I was a little girl. I know that I can't live without ALLAH. I love MY GOD SO much and I won't change it to another thing!!!
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| posted by gitabanget @ 12:49 AM |
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| Friday, August 19, 2005 |
| in love or not? |
Voila! The deadline is over and I can write a lot of stuff in my blog. Hehehhe. Well, first my work story, since my boss is sick (mba santi, get well soon yah. We miss you here), so I’ve got to take over all her assignment, including planning and budgeting. The budgeting matter really makes me hard to breath since I haven’t done anything and I don’t have any clue at all. Gosh, maybe I have to see the positive side from all of this condition.
Yang kedua, I think I’m gonna write the story in Indonesian. Writing in your mother’s language really relieving when it’s all about feeling. I guess… ehheheheh
Akhirnya gue ketemu cermin gue. Seseorang yang melakukan hal yang sama seperti yang gue lakukan. Apapun yang dia katakan atau lakukan, adalah hal yang sama dengan yang gue lakukan. Ini sebenarnya menakutkan karena gue merasa terintimidasi. Kalau kata temen gue, ntan, mungkin sudah saatnya loe menemukan lawan yang tangguh. Tapi, terkadang keegoisan gue masih membuat gue menjadi pemenang selama ini. Kecuali hari kamis kemaren, gue mengaku kalah. Sayangnya, gue masih terlalu angkuh untuk akhirnya menyerah. Although, tiga orang sahabat gue bilang, Please surrender yourself, gita. Or you will hurt at the end.
I still figure out. |
| posted by gitabanget @ 9:58 PM |
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| Ten Things I HATE about you... |
I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots.
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh.
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around.
And the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly…I hate the way I don’t hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, NOT EVEN AT ALL! |
| posted by gitabanget @ 9:31 AM |
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| My office mate! |
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| posted by gitabanget @ 9:22 AM |
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| Impian masa kecil. |
little girl inside myself... |
| posted by gitabanget @ 8:44 AM |
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| Thursday, August 18, 2005 |
| MIrror.. mirror |
Mirror mirror on the wall.
You could be my mirror.
But rite now, I don't know. should i break it or not?
My phobia still keep me quiet.
Trust me it's hard. And I'm trying so hard to make the decision.
Give me more time, will you? |
| posted by gitabanget @ 5:19 AM |
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| Monday, August 08, 2005 |
| The fun days!` |
Finally. my office celebrated our anniversary by helding a company outbound gathering last weeks. It was two days at Thursday and Friday. Heehehehe it was such fun coz you didn;t have to work in week days.
Everybody knows that I have big trouble to get up early in the morning. But, I was so exciting that I didn;t complain much when I knew that we had to be at the office at 7 am. If it was not for the gathering, I knew that I would complain and decided to not attend the event. hehehehe. I was such a night person.
So at seven am on thursday morning, I was at my office wearing my black Tshirt. yes, It was the dress code for that day. So, everyone in Female Magazine was wearing black. we looked like real rockers. heheheheheh |
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